Frustrated vent. Feel free to ignore

I just had to get this out.

I have been at the hospital for 4 years now, in that time I have seen bullshit after bullshit. Management does whatever they want and nobody says boo about it.

I have been turned down for full time job after full time job because I didn't have enough seniority or they found other excuses (my old boss didn't want to lose me in the department I am in now. I am a very excellent employee. I work hard, I am good at my job, I am smart and I do things properly. I have only called in sick about 3 times in the past 4 years.

So I am finally in a position where I have enough seniority to be a front runner for other positions. I hate the department that I am in, I hate the hours and I would love something full time. I have put my time in and I think I deserve it.

About 6 months ago I applied for a different part time job for a change. The manager of that department told me I would not get many shifts, even though I was certain that I would but I decided to take her work for it and I withdrew my application and they hired someone externally for the job.

Fast forward to now. In June I applied for a full time position and I was blind sided by someone else in the hospital who already had a full time job who swooped in and took right from under my nose. Of course she has every right to apply for the job but it upset me to be passed up for another one.

Then another full time came up and I thought "this is it!" only to now find out that the girl who was hired externally for the job that I was talked out of taking is more eligible than me because her union is a different bargaining unit than mine.

It's fucking bullshit!! I am being turned down for a job when I have 4 years of experience behind me and this girl has 6 months all because she is in a job that should have been MINE.

I am very discouraged and very frustrated.

I feel like every time I go for something I try and try and try and I am patient and I wait (even though I am frustrated) and then someone else swoops in and gets what I want. This is true with work and this is true with TTC.

I am having a pity party right now but I am trying to stay hopeful that something will come up for me but right now I am having a pity party.

Let's hope that the hospital decides to hire me instead. LOL