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Thursday, August 5, 2010

Early TTC hopefulness

As I was daydreaming the other day I started to think about my TTC timeline. The hopefulness, the let downs, the naive thoughts, the heartbreak, the happiness, the tears...oh the tears!

Then I started thinking about how hopeful (and actually sure) I was that this would be a quick and easy process for us. After all, it is easy for everyone in my family.

Here is a fun little compilation of the idiotic things that I actually thought early off in this journey.


Cycle #1
Started having sex daily as soon as my period stopped. Visited tons of websites and filled in my "cycle information" into Ovulation Predictors to figure out when I was ovulating. Right around that day we had missionary sex, after which I stayed on your back, with my legs in the air for a minimum of 20 minutes. I started to immediately imagine being pregnant, doing the math to figure out when I would be due, imagining all of the events in the next 9 months that I would be pregnant for. I imagined telling family and friends the big news.
I even stopped drinking, not even a sip because what if I were to harm my unborn child? I do not want to take any chances.

Cycle #4
I cannot believe that it is taking this long! Only one more cycle to try and then I am taking a break because we are heading to Las Vegas and I choose fitting into my bridemaid dress and partying in Vegas over the possibility of being pregnant. A friend tells me about fertilityfriend.com but I don't start temping yet.

Cycle #6
Back to TTC full time. The Vegas trip was great and now we will TTC without breaks. My sister wedding is coming up in Cuba so I did the math to where I would still be able to travel if I got pregnant right away.


Cycle #8
It was around this time that I found BOTB. I was educated about charting and started doing it right around this time and lo and behold, even though I have a perfect 28 day cycle, I do not ovulate on CD 14.

I think most of you know how the rest goes and I am trying not to make this a depressing post, just a fun post about the naive thoughts that go through your head when you first start TTC.

Here's some funny things that I actually thought before I was edumacated.

  1. Everyone in my immediate family is fertile so I must be too
  2. Online ovulation calculators are accurate
  3. Every little symptom pre-AF means I am pregnant
  4. The First Response commercial says I can test 5 days before my missed period and they wouldn't lie to me!
  5. If we are not getting pregnant there must be a problem with D's sperm because everyone in my family is so fertile
  6. My perfect 28 day cycle means that it will be super easy for us to get pregnant
  7. Every little twinge, cramp, gas bubble must be the egg meeting the sperm or something else magical
I am sure there are tons more but that seems so long ago that I can barely remember any of it and am ashamed to admit it but I think we all start somewhere. The sad thing is that for some women it is that easy and they still believe many of those things. 





1 comment:

  1. ::giggles:: ah yes, the days of naivete. I wish we could actually go back there. Even the dissappointment seemed easier but that feels like a lifetime ago.

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