***This blog post contains talk of oral sex and delves deep into a very personal side of my life**
There is about a million different names for the act of fellatio, either male or female.
I am not a big fan of the blow job. I will do it every now and again but it's rare that my poor husband gets a BJ and usually it's just a tiny blip on the foreplay radar. I cannot remember the last time I gave a blow job from beginning to *ahem* end. I have friends who are fans of giving blow jobs because they are not in the mood to have sex. Screw that! If it is a question between sex and a blow job, I am spreading my legs 9 times out of 10. I have even had bets with D where a blow job was the prize and after he won I would say "I don't feel like it, can we just have sex instead?"
But then there is the flip side. D going down on me. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy it. I enjoy it a lot. But I rarely let him do it. It's weird and I have never considered myself a prude but when it comes to this, I am. I worry about the smell, did I shave well enough, is he looking at it? cause it's ugly, it cannot taste good, am I grossing him out in some way?
Evidently, the whole thing makes me very uncomfortable. But when I do relax and let it happen I always wonder why I don't let him go downtown more...... Maybe one day Prudence McPrude will leave my body and I will let go a little.
The of course there is the ever awkward and uncomfortable 69. Has anyone ever really enjoyed this? Honestly? If you are on top you are not only trying to enjoy what is happening to you all the while holding yourself up and working on a task of your own. It's exhausting. I am too busy concentrating on what I am doing in order to enjoy what he is doing. If we are going to engage in oral then I think it's best enjoy if everyone takes their own turn.
Get out of my head!
ReplyDeleteAlthough I pretty much agree with everything you said, I rather enjoy 69 if we're going to participate in oral. Because it's a win-win: TBH, he's better when he's getting a BJ at the same time.