No more

The spotting stopped. It was just the once.

I spent all of last night crying and screaming and now my body is seriously screwing with me.

D is so hopeful still and positive that it breaks my heart. He had a flashlight out staring at the pee stick, which he swore he saw the slightest hint of a line. He doesn't deserve this life because of me. He would make such an amazing father and yet he fell in love with a broken woman.

Trying so hard to keep the false hope away, my heart can't take it anymore.